Alex Speak · Dreams · Synchronicities · Universal World

Weird WTF Feeling

question-mark-vector-1068869           I’ve had an itch to write a post like this for a while now. I’m not entirely sure if this is meant to be written as a piece to vent or to just to express what is going on through my mind, body, spirit, and whatever the hell else is going on in my life, seeing that maybe someone could relate to me. Or maybe possibly add some sort of inspiration out there that speaks, “You’re not alone” or “Feeling a sense of imbalance from time to time is not out of the norm”. If neither one of those things happens, that is perfectly okay with me. I tend to go with the flow.

Okay, enough mindless rambling! Now… for perhaps the past year and a half or so I have been getting these really oddly or randomly timed sensations of something feeling ‘off’. I do know for a fact that the intuition is never wrong, but the mind that is clouded with confusion, anger, sadness, fear, or what have you can throw you for a loop. My own sensations on whether something feels ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ has indeed worked in my favor by keeping me safe and on the right track. Oh, and what I mean by sensations are what some people might consider to be ‘gut feelings’, instincts, perhaps even visions, and or sensations within the body that might signal for something. Some would believe that our own intuitions are guided by higher sources, or higher light beings. These sensations can be very sporadic at times, but those timings happen for a reason.

The reason why I am pointing this out is I’ve been noticing a pattern with some of these sensations where I feel as though something feels ‘off’. They’ve been happening around the same time of night, for a consecutive amount of nights (going from a few days straight to two weeks straight to a week of nothing to a week of something), cycling an odd pattern of ‘off’ feelings and then finally, majority of the time the next day or a few days after those sensations, something happens. Most of the time, these events aren’t major, and sometimes they are. (For the sake of anonymity, names, faces, dates, and exact details will NOT be revealed). Whether it’s little everyday annoyances to much bigger and more dramatic life changes varies. Lately, some of these events have been turning into bigger, more serious life changes, and a lot of them are not directed towards me at all. 

On the flipside, I do have a lot of positive experiences where I do see something good coming my way, and eventually it does. There’s sometimes a bit of repetition to these positive sensations, yet not as much as the more ‘off’ sensations. 

When I do get these weird sensations, I do what I can to cope with them like listening to music, writing, drawing, watching something on Youtube, meandering on Twitter, etc. Sometimes even talking to someone helps. Eventually after a few moments the ‘off’ sensations go away, but only to a point. I still feel remnants of it towards the back of my mind and in the bottom of my throat and stomach.

Anyway, I hope that this makes sense to those that might be experiencing this as much as I do. Feel free to drop a message if you’d like. I hope you all have a wonderful evening! 

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Alex Speak · Positivty and Funnies · Universal World

Do You Remember?

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Do you remember?

Do you remember who you are?

Or just what you were?

Do you remember our journey?

Roads that never end.

Lush green trees, bright skies, soft wind, yes…

The pastel sunsets.

Great feasts, lovely people, laughs…

Bikes, cars, trains, and planes.

New people, new friends, new memories.

Our hearts filled with love.

How did the world end up like this?

Don’t lose all hope now.

Mistakes happen dear.

People come and go all the time.

Bad stuff happens too.

Death, loss, abrupt change, loneliness…

Life can be painful.

But, life can also be happy.

Don’t grow cold from it.

Don’t listen to what they say dear.

None of it is true.

Do you remember your own truth?

You are happy dear.

Do you know how gifted you are?

Will you welcome this?

Welcome the door to happiness?

Do you remember?

Do you remember who you are?

You were born as one.

-Alex

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Alex Speak · Positivty and Funnies · Universal World · World of Psyche

Know When to Say No

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Don’t be afraid to say yes, and don’t be afraid to say no.

We need to make important decisions in life, even when going with the flow.

Our individual needs, desires, and boundaries are important.

No one can take that away from you and no one has control over you.

Don’t be afraid to stand up for yourself and become assertive in a loving way.

We are individually in control of our own selves. 

So with that, say no to:

Negativity

Hurting others

People and things that drain you

Doing things that don’t feel ‘right’

Hurting the environment

Things that aren’t good for your health and wellbeing 

Taking or destroying other people’s things

Violence

Most importantly, say no to things that take away your happiness.

You do matter.

We all have a choice.

Remember that.

Don’t be afraid to say no.

-Alex

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Alex Speak · Universal World

January Shore

img_1079January shore was once never seen before.

December waters once resided here.

Rainbow ash and sea salt stains my heart.

A heart of glass now turns to gold.

My mouth quivers at the sight of the sunset.

The spark of January resides upon these waters.

These waters stand the test of time.

I feel a sense of freedom pulsating through my body.

Nothing else matters except for this very single moment in time.

Not a sign of steel colored clouds casting weighing upon the skies above could be seen.

Nor icy rain that has settles upon the mountains above us.

This moment is endless, infinite, beautiful.

No words can express the gratitude of this moment caught on film.

Nothing can take away my pure joy from this short span of time.

I will forever cradle the January shore within my heart.

-Alex

 

 

Alex Speak · Dreams · Synchronicities · Universal World

Be There

If you are truly my friend; Please don’t hurt me.

If you truly are my companion; Please don’t wish me harm.

If you truly are my rock; Please don’t judge me by my cover.

If you are truly supportive of me; Please don’t coddle me.

If you believe in me; Please don’t patronize me. 

If you truly believe that I will succeed; Please don’t rise me up only to fail.

If you truly believe I am sturdy and strong; Please don’t save or rescue me.

I don’t need any of these things.

All I ask for is your time.

All I ask is for you to be there.

I do not seek money or material goods.

I do not wish to harm or take advantage of others.

I do not make promises I cannot keep.

I will not make a commitment only to fall through and give in.

I am here for you.

I’m here for whatever you need.

All I ask is for that in return.

Namaste.

-Alex

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Alex Speak · Artwork · Dreams · Randomness · Synchronicities · Universal World

The Door to the Unknown

Open the door to the unknown dear friend.

The past is over, don’t allow yourself to pretend.

You don’t need emotional baggage in your life.

Its like having a vile creature that sinks its needle-like teeth into your ankles.

Their weight of the beast is the shackles, the penetration of the teeth is pain, and allowing it to do so only slows you down even more.

I know change is scary and that it feels like you don’t have any control.

What also makes it worse is that you’ve grown attached to the thing wrapped around your ankles.

Its just been there for so long as it wastes away draining your every fiber slowly.

You can’t go back to change the past. 

Time machines do not exist to us for a reason.

They are of fiction which is also the fear that holds you back.

Can’t you see the radiating light coming from the door in front of you?

Can’t you feel the gentle warmth on your skin?

What about the sweet smell of success and victory that is within your grasp?

This door can mean anything or everything to you.

Just one simple step and your in.

The light burns away the sludge that sits at your feet.

With the weight burned away you’ll feel as light as a feather.

An instant flood of intense color radiates through your veins the moment you enter that door.

Its a freaky sensation of euphoria that rushes through your bones that whirls back around to embrace you again.

It might not make all the pain and sadness go all away forever.

But, it will create a new sense of meaning.

So please, let the thrill of the new wash away the nasty stain of the old.

Drop your fears and worries. 

Let them lie where they lie.

Open your mind, heart, and soul to the new.

Open the door to the unknown.

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Alex Speak · Positivty and Funnies · Universal World · World of Psyche

Universal World: Avoiding Negativity

shied-233x300      There is something that really needs to be said about personal, spiritual, and energetic boundaries. We as humans are entering a time of massive changes and growth. With this, it’s basically ‘out with the old and in with the new’! How can we allow new opportunities, experiences, and things come into our lives when we have old junk crowding our space? Junk can mean physical, psychological, emotional, spiritual stuff that we no longer need and or continues to hinder our growth. Let’s say you are moving into a new house and it’s bigger and more spacious than your old one. You still have personal belongings that are either old, dusty, falling apart, or just plain don’t fit or belong anywhere in the house. As hard as it may be, at one point or another your gut (or intuition) might tell you its time to let these things go. 

       Anyway, getting past my jibber jabber, here’s the point: Negativity in any way, shape, or form CAN and WILL hold you back if you let it do so. That can include anything like: News, Media, Politics, Gossip, Dramatics, People, Places, Unhealthy Substances, etc. Giving time, energy, and attention to certain people, places, and things can simultaneously leave you feeling angry, depressed, drained, and even unmotivated (and might possibly lead you on a path and or develop habits that are not so healthy). YantraWings210x210_0001

Personally, due to some of the yucky things that are floating around the world and universe has pushed me to make some much needed and healthy changes. These are some of the changes I have made within the past few years and have REALLY helped me:

1. I do not watch TV at all, period.

2. I do not watch, read, or get involved with the news. I used to watch the news with my family, and it just made me so angry and depressed because of all the ‘bad news’ that was on. 

spiritual_001072913. I am no longer involved with Politics. I have gotten some nasty attacks because of the fact I have chosen not to vote, watch the news/debates, or get involved. Honestly, I really did used to be involved with the Politics. However, over time I basically watched my emotional health (and physical health) diminish as I ranted, raved, and argued about Politics over the internet, at school, with my family, etc. I could no longer take it and removed myself from it to heal and grow.

4. I steer away from negative people, situations, and places as much as physically possible. There are places like work and school where sometimes there might be a bit difficult to avoid some situations/individuals. When I am faced with uncomfortable situations, what I follow these guidelines: Stay Positive, Be Yourself, Be Assertive and Maintain Boundaries, Don’t Let Others Bring You Down, and if needed be Walk Away

5. I do my best to maintain a healthy lifestyle. I am always working on ways to be physically, mentally, emotionally, spirituality balanced, and to overall be happy. So, I do what makes me happy. 

Every lifestyle really differs in many unique, intricate, and marvelous ways. However, without things that are ‘excess’ or ‘weigh you down’, you might find that your journey in life might ‘feel’ a bit smoother than it was before. Only you can find that true balance. My hope is that regardless of who you are, I really hope that you are happy. =)

-Alex

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