The moment I closed my eyes was the same moment that my life had changed. I was underwater and was swimming downwards. The bottom of the ocean was not of this earth. It was dark, dismal, and looked like it was a gnarled underground result from some sort of nuclear disaster. Rocks and shards of brown, gray, and rusted objects surrounded me. The tension around me built and I could hear nasty grumbles and growling. I got even deeper and was able to finally see an object that I needed to get. It was a massive light orb that had some illegible writing on it. I could hear “NO! NO! NO! You will not have that! Come back here!” and saw malevolent beings made of the sludge and slime that was on the bottom of the water. I swam upwards from the water and took off. I felt a layer from my wings (I had wings in this experience) being pulled off, revealing a dark golden-silver color. As I began to fly higher and higher, weight started to fall off and I started to feel light, but strong. Almost weightless, but maintaining a form of solid light.
I opened by eyes and felt a significant change in my aura, third, and crown chakras. It was what I can only describe as growing pains. The second time I closed my eyes, I saw myself performing the same action and saw that there were several orbs on the ocean’s floor. All of them had illegible writing on them. Then I saw myself going into a different area which was a cave straight into a colossal cave with lava and moving rocks. I pulled more light orbs and flew through a narrow exit in the cave. All of my chakras lit up and more weight was pulled from my being. It was painful and intense, but after I came out of there, I felt different. Then I went into another cave that was very earthy like, went in, grabbed an orb, and flew back outwards towards the sky.
The third time I closed my eyes I could see myself and my aura in the shape of a massive bubble. The outside of the bubble was reflective with a thin layer of rainbow light and the rest of my aura was indigo. Next, I jumped through a bunch of dark clouds and stood in front of a few of my spirit guides. A massive amount of weight was taken off my whole being. My guides smiled and me and said,”Welcome back”. I smiled and inspected my whole being and felt the anger, sadness, confusion, and negativity from my body was pulled off of me like a veil of darkness was taken off of me. In the background of the clouds I was standing upon, I saw everyone in the Breathing Zone chat standing in a row. They were all beings of reflective light and they all looked like crystals. The light they were made of interlocked with one another into a sideways geometric shape. Suddenly they shot up towards the sky, blew up, and fell back into the cosmos and formed the stars.
I’m excited to see what next week is going to bring. =)
Last night before bed I decided to spend some time doing some heavy meditation. I spent a little over 30 minutes meditating with binaural beats with music. When I was meditating, I saw and felt something very very magical.
At first I saw myself in the cosmos and I was gently floating into the arms of a goddess like figure, made from the stars and cosmos around us. I could feel myself falling into a deeper state of meditation.
I saw myself standing on the ground right next to a middle-sized tree. I wasn’t in a human form at all. I remember being some kind of animal, a mix between a wolf, a dragon, and something else. I was a light blue color with bright blue eyes. I could see myself running and then taking off from the ground and going up higher and higher into the summit. I could see orbs and smaller energy forms forming around my shoulders and wings as I went through several layers of clouds. They followed me as the ones who were meant to stay on the ground, stayed on the ground. I was tempted to look back, but I didn’t. I was urged to keep going higher.
At one point I heard something say, “This is what happens when you get sick and don’t take care of yourself” I saw myself falling from the sky and then falling into a body of water. I felt tired and alone. I wasn’t able to get back up into the sky. I came back out and wandered along the side of the water, through thick brush and trees, trying to find a place to recuperate. I found a place to lie down for a bit. Then I remember getting up and finding a small waterfall. There was someone there by the waterfall. I don’t quite remember who the person was, but they felt familiar. I also remember at that point being a human again. The waterfall began to glow and then light began to fill everything around us. Life began to bloom and the color was restored within everything around me. The person by me waved at me and then I took off into the skies again.
After awhile all I could see is what appeared to be a valley created by the cosmos. It was filled with dark red and purple dust. I could hear a gentle voice speaking affirmations to me which made me feel at ease. That same voice told me to ignore the ones that spoke poorly about myself, the one filled with negativity that would throw me off. That was the voice that was my ego; the ego that is influenced by anger and fear. After that I woke up feeling relaxed and ready for bed.
The Dalai Lama couldn’t have said it any better.
Our dreams are an open door to a whole new world that we never knew was there.
Sweet dreams everyone.
We are universal drops.
Infinite and eternal oceans created within us all.
Infinity within each drop creates the infinite ebb and flow of the universe.
We are filled with light, love, and eternal peace.
The drops have no beginning and no end.
There is no polarity, nor definition to each drop.
We are what we need to be and that is all.
Duality is one.
We are one.
I am Zen.
I breathe it, see it, feel it.
My actions are Zen.
My thoughts, beliefs, and intentions are Zen.
I lost ‘self’, ‘want’, ‘desire’, ‘crave’, ‘wish’, and ‘ego’.
With that I am left with light, love, and Zen.
I am Zen; I am whole.
If you lose the ‘I’.
Lose ‘need’, ‘want’, and ‘desire’.
Love won’t expire.
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