A ball of blinding light from the sky shot through the nameless dreamer’s eyes.
It shocked the girl for a moment, causing her to cover her face, but she felt no pain.
When she opened her eyes again, her vision was permanently changed.
She no longer saw things the way she saw them before.
As she opened her eyes, a new world was born.
“Let’s go!” Before the girl could speak, the orb swiftly picked up the girl and flung her over the endless waterfall. She looked down at the infinite bottom below her that never seemed to end. The Indigo orb catches her by her shoulders and hovers with her above one of the floating pieces of rock. The orb placed her down onto the rock and floated by her face. The orb appeared to have new features that it didn’t have before. Larger wings of gold and a ring of light floating above it.
“Spirit orb… is that a halo above your head?”
“You may call it that if you wish.”
“What else would it be?”
“Now that is a lesson for another day!”
“And… your wings are bigger. Much bigger than they were before.”
“Yes! That they are. Like you, I am still growing. We never stop growing. None of us do.”
“Well, what is it that I’m growing?” The girl feels her shoulder blades towards the lumps on her back and have found that they are even bigger than they were before. They were both about 6 inches in length and had a soft, fuzzy web like texture to them. “What is this??”
“You’re growing into the divine soul that you’re meant to illuminate unto us all.”
“Say what?” The girl tilts her head to the side in response to the orb’s statement.
“In other words, you’re right where you need to be. But first, there is one thing that you must do before moving forward.” The orb gently taps the girl’s nose.
“What is that?” The orb circled around her head and darted off.
“This way!”
“Are you insane??? I can’t reach these floating island thingys!”
“Yes you can! Just jump!” With that the girl looked upwards to the smaller floating boulders that were to her left. With all her might, she crouched down to her ankles and jumped onto the next floating boulder. The sense of gravity seemed to be nearing towards non-existant. She hovered high above the boulder before slowy landing on top of it. Whoa! That was freaky!
“Be careful dear girl. The gravity here is far different from the gravity that you have been acustomed to. Now, let’s get going!” The orb continued to dart off to the skies. It weaved and wobbed around boulders, trees, and other creatures and oddities that existed in this strange place. The girl was not too behind the Indigo Orb. She miraculously kept close to the orb. Her movements weren’t weighed down by anything and she traveled faster than the fastest creature known to man. But how was this possible for a young girl? The orb and girl stop upon a crescent shaped boulder that was high up in the lavender skies. There was a fairly large bubble floating at the middle of the boulder. “This is it.”
“What is this?” The girl took a close look and saw something startled her, causing her fall to backwards onto the grassy boulder. Her mouth was agape at what she saw. What she saw was flashes of her everyday life that she once knew. Her place of work, her home, her college, her friends, and her family. Old memories of laughter, tears, loss, celebrations, and everything inbetween rotated within the bubble.
In a soft, but somber voice, the orb said, “It is time to let this go.” Those words made the girl’s stomach drop lower than ever before. Her heart started to feel heavy and it hurt, greatly.
“What do you mean by let this go spirit orb?”
“It’s time to let this go.”
“You don’t mean… pop it, do you?” She looked back at the orb and then at the orb. The girl’s heart began to race and she felt an uncontrollable sense of panic. It ran through her body like watercolor paint within a fresh drop of water.
“No. I won’t do it!” With that she fell onto the ground in pure agony. This was far worse than the pain she felt on the solid surface of the water in the beginning. The pain was throbbing pins and needles that permeated through her entire being. It paralyzed her to the ground and she could not move.
“If you do not let it go, the pain within your body and soul will only get worse.”
“But everything I know and love will go away! And I don’t want it to go away!” She cried harder than any time she has cried in her entire existence. It was as deep as her pain, if not deeper. A deep soul cry that echoed through the stars. She couldn’t explain where this feeling was coming from and why, but what she did know was this pain came from somewhere.
“Come now, that is far from the truth! Just because you let go of something, doesn’t mean that it is gone forever.”
“Will I die if I do this? Will I forget everything?” All of the faces of people she loved dearly pressed their faces against the inside of the bubble, except for one that was especially significant to her. However, she couldn’t quite remember who. At the time it just truly didn’t matter anymore.
“No you will not. I will help you up so you can pierce this bubble.” The orb lifted the pain from the girl’s body and she was finally able to rise to her feet. Tears rolled down her warm tender cheeks and every part of her body was stiff and achy. She looked at the bubble again and saw that the inside of it turned cloudy and gray. Screaming and crying eminated from the bubble, begging the girl not to touch it. “All you need to do is touch it and it will burst. It will be a bit overwhelming, possibly scary when you do it, but I can assure you that the feeling will be gone within a few moments.”
“Okay.” The girl took a deep breath and walked up to the bubble. The screams and cries got louder, nearly ear shattering loud. The girl took another deep breath, closed her eyes, then touched the bubble with her right hand. A massive ‘NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO’ eminated from the bubble as it burst. A massive wave of wind from the bubble knocked the girl to her knees. Silence replaced the screams. The bubble was gone, and so was everything that flashed before her eyes. The girl’s mind went completely blank. She covered her face with her hands and cried once more. The orb floated to her face and surrounded her body with light.
“It will be alright dear girl. It’s over.” The light surrounded the girl turned into a bubble of infinite light. The light made her feel like she was being carressed by the softest being that ever existed. With each tear that dropped, an ounce of pain dissipated from her body. However, she didn’t feel a sense of relief for several minutes until something cold and wet nudged at her hands. It kept nudging at her hands until the girl removed her hands from her face. A familiar friendly face appeared in front of her eyes.
“Feather!!!!!!” She tightly grabbed onto the glowing white puppy and held on for dear life. “I thought that you were gone!” She backed away at an arm’s length to get a closer look at her beloved friend. The puppy tilted his head and smiled. She hugged the puppy again and gave her a kiss on the cheek. The puppy began to relentlessly lick her face until the tears were gone. “So, it’s not over?”
“It has only just begun dear girl. And the best part is, you have a friendly face to join you on this new journey.”
Part 1- Intro | Part 2- The Development of Wings | Part 3- An Awakening | Part 4- Growing Pains | Next Part
Last night before bed I decided to spend some time doing some heavy meditation. I spent a little over 30 minutes meditating with binaural beats with music. When I was meditating, I saw and felt something very very magical.
At first I saw myself in the cosmos and I was gently floating into the arms of a goddess like figure, made from the stars and cosmos around us. I could feel myself falling into a deeper state of meditation.
I saw myself standing on the ground right next to a middle-sized tree. I wasn’t in a human form at all. I remember being some kind of animal, a mix between a wolf, a dragon, and something else. I was a light blue color with bright blue eyes. I could see myself running and then taking off from the ground and going up higher and higher into the summit. I could see orbs and smaller energy forms forming around my shoulders and wings as I went through several layers of clouds. They followed me as the ones who were meant to stay on the ground, stayed on the ground. I was tempted to look back, but I didn’t. I was urged to keep going higher.
At one point I heard something say, “This is what happens when you get sick and don’t take care of yourself” I saw myself falling from the sky and then falling into a body of water. I felt tired and alone. I wasn’t able to get back up into the sky. I came back out and wandered along the side of the water, through thick brush and trees, trying to find a place to recuperate. I found a place to lie down for a bit. Then I remember getting up and finding a small waterfall. There was someone there by the waterfall. I don’t quite remember who the person was, but they felt familiar. I also remember at that point being a human again. The waterfall began to glow and then light began to fill everything around us. Life began to bloom and the color was restored within everything around me. The person by me waved at me and then I took off into the skies again.
After awhile all I could see is what appeared to be a valley created by the cosmos. It was filled with dark red and purple dust. I could hear a gentle voice speaking affirmations to me which made me feel at ease. That same voice told me to ignore the ones that spoke poorly about myself, the one filled with negativity that would throw me off. That was the voice that was my ego; the ego that is influenced by anger and fear. After that I woke up feeling relaxed and ready for bed.
Do small things matter?
I thought they got in the way.
Maybe I was wrong.
Big things are made from small things.
Faith is a big thing.
Faith depends on smaller things.
Small things do matter.
They make up the big picture.
Small things are good too.
Have faith.
Both words start with ‘F’.
Both words can have an impact.
One is positive.
The other is negative.
Which do you prefer?
Faith will bring the best results.
Hold on to it tight.
Don’t let go of your own faith.
Expect miracles.
I wish, I wish I was a fish.
I could be a steak, a shish kabob, the perfect, perfect dish.
There is only one reason I ever so wish to make this wish.
The reason is hope.
There are so many days where I find it hard to cope.
I try not to say things out of anger, for it makes me want to wash my mouth out with soap.
Instead I’ll hold onto hope, which stems from love.
Sometimes I need a sign; pennies, a hug, a white dove from above.
Anger and frustration won’t help, nor would a push or a shove.
This may sound goofy, but as I stand here tonight I swear.
I make a wish and send it to an angel above, to someone who might care.
I know my wish will come true, because I know you’ll always be there.
So on this very night, I send my wishes to the angels and light beings above.
I’m sure one day I’ll get to see my wish form from the brightest star above.
Thank you.
I pick up on every single thing…
Every single vibration that the universe has to offer… Every single day.
Some days it makes me smile infinitely, and on others it makes me weep uncontrollably to what feels like an eternity.
I feel happiness, sadness, anger, love, hate, malice, confusion, pain, sorrow, joy, fear, and everything in between.
Sometimes I get so mixed up in the sea of vibrations that I can’t even tell the difference between my own feelings and others.
I can connect and comfort the conflicted without speaking a single word.
I can heal a broken heart just by knowing what it needs to heal.
I can ease the physical pain of an injured soul just by knowing exactly where the origin of the pain is.
I can see a whole world of secrets just by opening my eyes, and it is a gift that I can see and feel everything so vividly.
But there are some days where I cry, weep, and even scream on the inside due to the large cluster of vibrations I feel every single day… it can be far too much for my soul to bare.
Why is it so hard for me to distinguish one feeling to another and whether it is my own or not? Why can I feel things so deeply, like as if it’s happening to me? I have so many questions.
Some days I can answer them easily, other days I find myself lost for words.
In the meantime I continue to float along by the universe in search of my own lighthouse in the skies above.
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