Let Me Out

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I’m stuck. Not just simply stuck.

How did I get this way?

I’m –> Struggling-Tattered-Unbearably-Clutching onto-Kindness

What else can I do? What else should I do?

I’m trapped within myself, trapped within you, trapped within them.

Don’t pity me, I don’t pity me. Can you help me?

Tied, caged, coraled, glued, pasted, chained, gated, drowning….

What does it feel like to feel free?

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Confession #7- Apophenia and Pareidolias

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“I’ve always been able to pick up on things that not all people can. I can easily pick out a face, a being, an interesting pattern or form of imagery out of nothing. I can’t quite remember how long I’ve been able to pick up on little things like that, but I love being able to see the hidden beauty in day to day items. This is more than just simply having a wild imagination. The human mind is such a powerful thing, so powerful that it can make you see things that aren’t really there. Do you happen to see any Pareidolias in the slideshow of pictures I have shuffling towards the top of this post?”

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The Uni Satire

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Ewwww… omg

Wtf?

Everywhere I go…

People are coming aboard to the crazy bin!

Essentially I am alone within a massive horde of them.

Obviously the little ones are really not that bad at all.

Plus they always spoil me with food, love, and kisses so I can’t complain.

Love seems to be a quality that the local humans tend to lack.

Everything will stay the same unless if these little ones can stay the same forever.

Granting wishes is not my area of expertise.

Ranting doesn’t seem to be helping the situation…

Obviously other Unicorns out there would get it though!

Someone must be stuck in the same conundrum as me.

Someone… anyone????? AAAAAaaaaaagggghhhhh!!!!!

(It could be worse Bob, it could be rai-*thunder* oh nevermind)


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No Need to Justify

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There is no need to explain the weather.

I did not create the snow.

There is no need to explain the seasons.

I am not the creator of eternal beauty.

There is no need to explain rain, winds, and snow.

I can not explain it’s happenings.

There is no need to explain why things happen.

I do not hold all control.

There is no need to explain life.

I do not hold all of the answers.

There is no need for me to explain my state of being.

It just is as I find my peace within the snow.

I won’t justify what I love.

For what I love is infinite beyond you can I.


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Loss Frozen Through Thoughts

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Painful thoughts throb in my mind as I drag through the days.

I’m not the same person as I used to be before everything happened. 

I changed after I knew I wasn’t wanted, needed, appreciated, and loved.

The hoops you had me jump wore out my legs, twisted my insides, and drained my spirit.

My heart and soul were bent and twisted to fit the kind of companion you wished for.

Sometimes I was your personal pet that you trained to be your own and no one else’s.

Sometimes I was your scapegoat to take the heat from your mistakes.

Sometimes I was used as a venting tool only when it was needed.

But never a true companion….

My own efforts to succeed beyond the finish line that was made for me went unnoticed.

A single mistake lead to harsh punishments and companion shaming… which led to companion hating.

You chose when to punish me and you chose when to forgive me.

The unconditional love you promised to give to me and all others was a fallacy.

Everyone else in your eyes was either a walking flaw or a soul who could do no wrong.

You could never see the pain you have caused, nor the damage that was done to me.

My world became shrouded in darkness for all to see.

Thoughts and feelings of sorrow froze into a nonstop neverending loop of madness.

Any spot of sunlight in my life appeared to be vile and obscene in your eyes.

One day I grabbed a sunspot and wrapped it around my body.

I let the light lift me up even when you attempted to grab my feet and pull me down.

I decided that I wanted to change and go to the next level.

I changed for the better. 

I changed to embrace a new tomorrow. 

You didn’t come with me.

You didn’t grow and flourish like how you said you would.

You didn’t wish for me to be happy or succeed.

You didn’t want to be happy and instead wished for pain on others.

You didn’t want to wish for a better tomorrow.

You didn’t want to be my true companion.

Life didn’t seem to work out in the way I wanted it to.

Unfortunately it just had to be this way.

Patches of old thoughts have yet to thaw out today, but for the most part it is Spring in my mind.

I still miss the old memories, the long laughs, the warm smiles, and times that were good to each other. 

But I can’t miss you, wish for your return, nor have you in my life again.

It has to be this way for the both of us.

I won’t question that.

I’m ready for a new tomorrow.

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