Letter to Dearest: Epilogue (Grande Finale)

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To my dearest,

This will be my final entry to you; this is the end of all endings. 

My chest burns fucking raw from the absolute zero frost inside my heart.

I endlessly curse the skies and damn the grounds from which I stand upon.

I must know!!! Tell me now… tell me this; why does evil exist?

Apathy, carelessness, selfishness, negligence?

An eternal rage that burns even the most innocent of souls. 

Are you feeling pure joy now?

How can this be oh dearest?

Why must the most unconditionally loving souls disintegrate into nothingness?

The innocents suffer and die while the malevolent entities dance and sing. 

I have caught many in their ruthless acts of violence and abuse. 

I’ve even picked up on the smallest wifs of negligence and abandonment.

I condemn the demented souls that walk upon this earth.

I have never wished harm or suffering to be put upon these things…

Except for now… god damn them!

I wish for the forces of god to come and strike down the ones made of filth and lies.

Eradicate the pure evil that walks upon this earth.

Banish the spirits of the damned that roam within these planes of existence.

Rid the souls of light from the abominations that suck us all dry.

Allow the ones who learn from their mistakes a chance to evolve and learn.

I don’t need this, you don’t need this, we don’t need this! 

I’ve lost my fucking mind!!

When will this fucking madness end???

I’m ending this fucking disasterpiece!

THIS ENDS TODAY.

END!

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World of Psych: Abuse

 

Forget numbing all emotion;

Lock the chest and swallow the key.

Your mind will loop and make a commotion;

I pray that expression of the melancholy from within sets me free.

Forget anger, guilt, and self blame;

Easier said than done, this I know.

Life is not a fucking game.

The heart is a pendulum that sways to and fro.

Stimuli from the many, drills us down to nothing.

It does not seem to matter what form it takes.

All in the name of need, greed, synthetics, and apathy; just something.

Wound, rung, and strained like rubber bands endlessly until it breaks.

Thank god this art sets me free;

Being tied from the inside, broiled from within.

Why did it take so long for me to see?

True perspective can come from separation of the oppressive kin.

Are they who they say they are?

Not unless you find what lies beneath the surface.

I’ve heard this all before.

Pushing those for truth and honesty is like pulling teeth.

I’ve been cracked open, exposing my inner core, bleeding.

‘Tis time to open the door to the unknown.

Don’t worry, these things happen for a reason.

Forgiving and letting go does not mean you must condone the damage that had been done.

Betrayal, lies, hurt, and treason.

I’ve been so close to throwing it all away.

I cannot do that.

Giving up leads to a price so impossible to pay.

I won’t because of the love and light within my heart, yeah that’s where its ‘at’.

-Alex

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